Something Inconspicuous

 To be honest I have no idea where this entry is gonna go. I'm currently in class and have a 15 minute break and am getting incredibly annoyed at two of my classmates who are talking up our professor. The class is Anthropology, it's my elective for this college semester. I'm actually enjoying it so far. The content is interesting and my professor is cool, but there are quite a few tryhards that are driving me nuts. It's literally an elective, you can chill and still be interested and engaged. Everything in balance, there is no need to teach the teacher. That being said, in my last entry I hadn't started my fourth semester yet so I guess I'll catch you up to speed. Tomorrow I wrap up week 3 of this semester. I'm starting to get used to having school five days a week, it's actually not too bad but Fridays have been a little rough. The two classes I have that day are definitely the hardest this semester. The first I have in the morning is Web Technologies a...

 First entry of the year! Woot woot. I guess I'll start things off with a little life update. My three weeks off of school has officially ended but this last week came by flying. Unfortunately, I caught a cold on Thursday night so I'm trying not to panic about going into work later today feeling like someone ran me over. I'm also currently trying not to panic that I'm back at school starting Monday. Which means that starting Monday I will start going to school five days a week rather than the three days I am used to. We'll see how it goes, the goal is still April and it keeps coming closer, one day at a time... This is supposed to be the part where I write smooth transition that allows me to segue into the next topic. However, my nose is so stuffed up that it feels like it's stuffed up my brain so I'll just start a new paragraph. Wicked (Part 1)! Unless you're living under a rock you've probably heard of this movie. And although I've talked about...

 Welcome to my 2024 Spotify Wrapped! Obviously, I'm not gonna be able to explain it all as thoroughly as I would like, but I'll do my best. A lot of these songs and artists require explanations, some I will give and some I will not (I have my reasons). So without further a do let's get started. Let's start with ripping the bandage off and addressing my number 1 song. Drumroll please... Defying Gravity (the original Broadway cast recording obviously). According to Spotify I streamed this song a total of 143 times, thus making me part of the top 0.001% of listeners worldwide. This may or may not mean that I am the number one listener of this song on Spotify but I'll try not to think about that too much. I could write an 1000 word essay about what this song means to me and why I love it so much but I'll spare you the details and move on to my top 2-5 songs this year.  Coming in at number 2 is Inolvidable by Ovy on the Drums. My favorite part of this song is actuall...

I'm backkkkk. Now feeling much happier and lighter since I wrapped up my third semester of college two days ago. Everything went well in my final week but chaos reigned the week before. To start things off on week 13, my computer broke down. And I mean COMPLETELY broke down. To the point that it is still at the computer repair shop more than a week later. This is especially frustrating because it literally just turned a year old so how is it possible that it has busted to this extent. Then, two days after my computer broke I got my schedule for my final semester of college and it is AWFUL. I now have to go to school every day and have some ridiculous class times like 6-9 pm on Mondays and 2-6 on Fridays (yes again!). This is despite the fact that I spend three hours waiting in line at my college to talk to someone to change just ONE of my classes to make it more manageable. However, I have now come to terms with this series of unfortunate events and am now determined to make the mo...

 I actually have so much I wanna talk about in this entry, hence why you dear reader only had to wait 10 days until my next post. First thing's first, Shawn Mendes released his new album yesterday and I have just finished listening to it in it's entirety. It was alright. I don't doubt that it was very important and special for him especially considering he's been MIA for so long, but it's not exactly my cup of tea. However, I loved the first song in his album "Who I Am", literally had me pacing in my room and sobbing. "I feel pressure from the people that I love and it hurts, but I know I gotta do it I gotta put me first, losing myself tryna make you proud, sorry gotta do it gotta let you down." Literally spoke to my soul, and what makes it even better is that those lyrics belong to verse 2 of the song. If you've read entry no.36  you should KNOW how much I love the second verse of a song.  Anyways, the lyrics in this song got me thinking abo...

 This is giving me flashbacks from a year ago when I would write entries during class. That is what I am currently doing cuz I am restless and bored. I really don't feel much of a desire to write an entry but my ADHD tendencies won't let me just sit and listen to the teacher. Especially when he promised to end class an hour early and now he just keeps rambling about things that have nothing to do with the lecture. It's a Linux class btw (I know nobody asked but I digress). After this lecture I will officially be done week 9 of my third semester, God willing, I'll finish my program at the end of April. April, it seems so far yet so close, time stands still and moves at the speed of light all at the same time. I don't even know what this entry should be about. I can't really talk about soccer right now cuz I honestly haven't had time to sit down and watch a game. Also the class I am currently in falls on Wednesdays from 2-5 pm, smack in the middle of when Arse...

 Time is a funny concept. Especially when we associate it with people. Does time actually heal? Is forgetting healing? Or is it one of those kinda things where what you don't know can't hurt you. Shouldn't healing be accepting and moving forward rather than forgetting? Forgetting feels like a cop-out. It takes a much stronger person to hold memories and walk away than to forget the memories all together. I'm ok by the way, the only reason I bring this up is because I was browsing through the internet and found a video of Adele singing "Someone like you" while crying during a concert. She wrote that song years ago but it's so clear that she still remembers everything. You can see a thousand moments flashing through her eyes in a matter of seconds. Hence why I ask, is it possible to feel healed when you don't forget? What's the difference between healing and moving on? In an attempt to answer that question, I would say that healing is moving on but m...

 Hello! Wow it's been a minute... I don't know why but I feel a little shy right now, I guess it's cuz I'm out of practice when it comes to writing these entries. I just finished reading my previous entry which was a month ago but it somehow feels like a lifetime. I am now one month into college and I am not going to lie it has been extremely difficult for me to get back into that routine. It has especially been difficult for me to actually do my homework when I say I'm going to do it. Most of the time I just end up sitting in front of the TV watching "Friends". I then proceed to lament over how stressed and overwhelmed I am while doing nothing to ameliorate the situation. Today was actually a good day for me though, I was quite productive. So much so that I actually don't have to do any homework tomorrow morning so I can get up at 6:45 rather then 5:30. On school days I leave the house at 7:20 for my 8:00 AM classes. It's crazy to think that I am ...

 My European adventure came to a close a few days ago. I got home Sunday afternoon knowing that I had to get up bright and early for work the next day. Despite the jetlag my shift wasn't bad, 7:45 to 2:00, plus I was at self-checkout so it really wasn't a difficult day. But one thing I should mention about self-checkout is the fact that it is freezing cold by those machines. So cold that I now have a bit of a sore-throat to top off my jet lag. I feel like I came back from vacation and hit the ground running, but I guess that's life for you. There are no grace periods between vacation and normalcy. When I ended that shift on Monday I proceeded to take a 4 hour nap and somehow I woke up even more exhausted! However, thanks to the jet lag it has been easier to get up early. Portugal is 6 hours ahead while Spain is 7 so you can imagine how disorienting that is at first. I can't believe summer is over! In a little less than 3 weeks I am going to have my last first day of sch...

 It’s been a while since I last made a deep and philosophical entry so please entertain me for a few minutes. I can’t really explain how my brain works, it’s kinda like a fun house mirror maze. There’s a lot going on and if it’s your first time in there it seems very confusing and chaotic. However, I know this fun house well. I know the dead ends and shortcuts but sometimes I purposely use these loopholes and secrets to my advantage. I use them to avoid thinking about certain things or to see things that aren’t really there.  Ok that sounds a little creepy. But essentially what I’m trying to say is that I like to play tricks with my own mind. For example, I’ll excuse bad behaviour or let people treat me badly because I believe they are misunderstood. That they actually had good intentions or valid reasons when I know deep down that isn’t always the case. But then again, don’t we all do that? Tell each other happy stories and imagine things differently in an attempt to shield o...