People with a good heart (entry no.35)

 It’s been a while since I last made a deep and philosophical entry so please entertain me for a few minutes. I can’t really explain how my brain works, it’s kinda like a fun house mirror maze. There’s a lot going on and if it’s your first time in there it seems very confusing and chaotic. However, I know this fun house well. I know the dead ends and shortcuts but sometimes I purposely use these loopholes and secrets to my advantage. I use them to avoid thinking about certain things or to see things that aren’t really there. 

Ok that sounds a little creepy. But essentially what I’m trying to say is that I like to play tricks with my own mind. For example, I’ll excuse bad behaviour or let people treat me badly because I believe they are misunderstood. That they actually had good intentions or valid reasons when I know deep down that isn’t always the case. But then again, don’t we all do that? Tell each other happy stories and imagine things differently in an attempt to shield ourselves from reality. It’s so hard for me to accept the fact that some people are just plain selfish and mean. 

I see the best in people to a fault. To the point that I focus so much on the good that I forget why I should stay away and get surprised when I get hurt. That’s why I try to remind myself to forgive but not forget or else the evil cycle repeats. I once saw a post that said “people with a good heart never win” and someone commented that it is because people with a good heart are not in it to win. How true those words are! People with good hearts are givers. They give their time, their things, and even themselves for others. Think of your favourite people, surely they have this quality in common. 

Two prime examples of givers are my parents. They are both givers but both give in very distinctive ways. My dad for instance is a HUGE foodie. But despite this he could be having his favourite food in the world and would give it up in an instant. The second someone in need or someone he loved asked for it. Actually, he wouldn’t even wait for you to ask for it, he’d just do it. 

My mom on the other hand always fascinates me when it comes to sacrificing time and energy for others. For example, when we have guests over at the house she spends hours preparing. She cooks up a feast, the house is immaculate and absolutely nothing is missing. She manages all this even though most of the time she is pulling all-nighters in front of her computer. She always goes last in nearly everything and a part of me will always feel guilty because it is impossible for me to fully show my gratitude for all she does. 

Expect nothing and appreciate everything. That sentence perfectly describes my parents. It’s so wonderful to be surrounded by unselfish people, especially when you take into account how rare they are. To be honest, this is not how I thought this entry was gonna go but I am pleasantly surprised with the result. I love talking about the people and things I love, to the point that I annoy others. It is impossible for me unlove something or someone. A piece of my heart will be with them forever.

You're still here? Meet me at entry no.36 :)