She's kinda back but she's definitely not gone (entry no.37)

 Hello! Wow it's been a minute... I don't know why but I feel a little shy right now, I guess it's cuz I'm out of practice when it comes to writing these entries. I just finished reading my previous entry which was a month ago but it somehow feels like a lifetime. I am now one month into college and I am not going to lie it has been extremely difficult for me to get back into that routine. It has especially been difficult for me to actually do my homework when I say I'm going to do it. Most of the time I just end up sitting in front of the TV watching "Friends". I then proceed to lament over how stressed and overwhelmed I am while doing nothing to ameliorate the situation. Today was actually a good day for me though, I was quite productive. So much so that I actually don't have to do any homework tomorrow morning so I can get up at 6:45 rather then 5:30. On school days I leave the house at 7:20 for my 8:00 AM classes. It's crazy to think that I am almost always up before 7:00 AM now regardless of whether or not it's the weekend. Tis the story of my busy life. 

That busyness and current lack of stability is part of the reason I stopped writing entries. Also I was kinda getting bored of my entries, they no longer felt exciting, just repetitive and kinda whiny. Like cry me a river Abby it's rough all around. But during my leave of absence this blog has exploded and I'm genuinely taken aback by the view count. Several of my entries have over 50 views! 50 views! That's almost two times bigger then the attendance at most of my college lectures! I still can't get over that there are so many people who enjoy my rants. Like I'm just spitting straight nonsense on these entries yet everyone is here for it. I've learnt to stop feeling completely flabbergasted when someone mentions my blog to me. Now it just makes me smile, that and feel just a tiny bit embarrassed. It's funny looking at what entries are the most popular. A lot of you seem to enjoy the deeper stuff, my downward descents into the rabbit hole that is my mind. For example, there are a lot of views on entry no.10 (The good, the bad, & the ugly) which makes me very happy cuz it's also one of my favorite entries.

The conclusion is just chef's kiss. "I'm definitely in uncharted territory here but I don't think love should be about risking it all, rather it should be about choosing it all, the good, the bad, and of course the ugly." I mean come on! That one sentence tied the entry together like a perfectly wrapped bow. Entry no.10 is also special to me because it was one of my first entries that talked almost exclusively about music I love and how I interpret it. There is still soooooooo much I haven't shared about music that I love but I'm sure more will be revealed in due time. In fact I could start talking about music right now but it would have to be short cuz I'm already getting close to my word count and that wouldn't be fair to the music. But in case you were wondering, my current top song on repeat according to Spotify is "Blowing Smoke" by Gracie Abrams. Her newest album is simply immaculate. I have also found a handful of new Taylor Swift B-side tracks that deserve their own entry at some point.

But although I have so many other things I want to write about, I can't guarantee there will be another post coming soon. You might have to wait a few days, weeks, or even a whole other month but it's safe to say that I will be back. Sharing thoughts and opinions that no one originally asked for but want to hear anyways. This is such a cool and fun project for me and it's even cooler that so many people find it cool and fun too. I definitely overused the word cool in that sentence but you get the point. Anyways, I should probably wrap this entry up and get to bed cuz from the looks of it I am going to be running on a solid 5 hours of sleep tomorrow. Yup this is another late night post cuz in case you couldn't tell I have no self-control and rarely learn my lesson. 

You're still here? Meet me at entry no.38 :)

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