The good, the bad, & the ugly (entry no.10)

 Writing these entries has made me realize that a lot can happen in such a short amount of time. My last post was 3 days ago and since that post Arsenal and Bayern tied 2-2, I got a Bukayo Saka jersey, I did 2 exams, officially have finished 3 out of 6 of my classes and by tonight I hope to be done with all my homework for the semester (it's not a lot don't worry). I'm finally starting to feel lighter and happier now that the massive amount of stress and dread for exams and final projects is almost over.

Fun fact, after I posted my last entry I went on to work on one of my assignments and somehow completely reset my computer and kicked myself out while trying to download Microsoft Server 2022 onto a virtual machine. To top it off, this all happened 1 hour before one of my final exams. I ended up rushing to my dad's office since he works in IT and begged him to fix it. Thankfully he did and I was able to complete the exam without a hitch... although I was a little frazzled. 

Honestly, I didn't really feel like writing an entry today, yet here I am cuz I have some weird obligation to myself. The only thing I find myself wanting to write about at the moment is music, that always seems to be my go to. Recently, I've been listening to more lo-fi pop Spanish music. Two of my current favorites are "pa' que sueñes" and "Patadas de Ahogado" I like how they combine Spanish and English by adding a word or two from the other language. But out of those two songs the one I HAVE to talk about is "Patadas de Ahogado" low-key I think it's the most beautiful love song I've ever heard. Early in the song the lyrics go: "Quiero saberte a lo que quieres, llorar por lo que te hace llorar, ser música de la que prefieres, y que nunca me quieras pausar" and you don't here those lyrics again until the very end of the song. In English, those lyrics roughly translate to I what to know/be what you want, cry for what makes you cry, be your favorite type of music that you would never want to pause. 

I think that's a beautiful description of love, to be someone's favorite through the good, bad, and ugly. That includes both your highs and lows as well as the other person's, you make one another stronger, and are the center of each other's storm. The song also shows that true love doesn't always have to be shown through big bold gestures, it's shown in the little things we do every day. "Es lo que me importa, mi vida, si vamos tarde por tu culpa, decir que es la mia" once again translated roughly that means; does it really matter my love, if were running late and it's your fault for me to say that it's mine. The first time I heard those lyrics my eyes legitimately started to water. Such as simple act but so much love behind it. I think I also appreciated it since I am naturally a very tardy person. 

Sometimes I can't believe such strong feelings of love like that actually exist, and how does one trust it because despite a couple having those feelings, things more often than not don't work out. I'm definitely in uncharted territory here but I don't think love should be about risking it all, rather it should be about choosing it all, the good, the bad, and of course the ugly.

You're still here? Meet me at entry no.11 :)

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