Something Inconspicuous

 It's felt like centuries since my last post so you can imagine the shock I had when I realized it's only been four days. Weekends haven't felt like true weekends for me in a while. Even if I do fun things with friends during them it feels more like a social catch up rather than actually hanging out. That doesn't mean that I don't have fun though! I do, and I'm so grateful for the friendships I have developed, it's just that sometimes I feel bad that I don't have enough time to be a strong enough presence in their lives. I can't be all things for everyone. Maybe one day I'll learn that.  Veering off into a less depressing topic, the weather has been sooooo nice lately. Nothing makes me happier than a bright blue sky to welcome spring. That being said, I've been so tempted to walk to work since it's only 30 minutes. But it would mean walking back home after my shift when I'm all tired and it's dark outside. I still tried to make th...

 Writing these entries has made me realize that a lot can happen in such a short amount of time. My last post was 3 days ago and since that post Arsenal and Bayern tied 2-2, I got a Bukayo Saka jersey, I did 2 exams, officially have finished 3 out of 6 of my classes and by tonight I hope to be done with all my homework for the semester (it's not a lot don't worry). I'm finally starting to feel lighter and happier now that the massive amount of stress and dread for exams and final projects is almost over. Fun fact, after I posted my last entry I went on to work on one of my assignments and somehow completely reset my computer and kicked myself out while trying to download Microsoft Server 2022 onto a virtual machine. To top it off, this all happened 1 hour before one of my final exams. I ended up rushing to my dad's office since he works in IT and begged him to fix it. Thankfully he did and I was able to complete the exam without a hitch... although I was a little frazzl...

 I'm mad at my past-self for saying I'd be back in two days, what she obviously meant was two times two days. Weekends are pretty busy for me so I didn't have time to write an entry on Sunday like I originally wanted to. Then Monday came around and I avoided my computer like the plague cuz I have assignments due and no desire to do them. At the moment, I am currently missing review for the final exam next week in my database management class. It's a really easy class and if for whatever reason I'm feeling uncertain about the exam, I'll probably just watch the recording so it's really no big deal.  Speaking of final exams, I have one later today for my elective this semester; Languages of the World. It's open book and multiple choice questions so I'm not in the slightest bit worried about it. I hope that doesn't come across as arrogant because believe me if it weren't open book I'd be under an insurmountable amount of stress. Nonetheless, ...

 I'm finally back after a week break. Don't be confused though, it was a break from posting not a break for me. This week I have been soooooo busy, and most of the busyness comes from my personal life rather than school or work. I don't like to complain about it because I ultimately know it's my own fault for overworking myself but I can't help but do it. What can I say, she's a girl boss and she knows it.  In just two weeks I'll finish my college semester, two semesters done and two more to go. I try to look at the glass as being half full rather than empty but some days it's hard. Especially on days like today when I have a 4 hour class on a Friday night with an assignment that will be due in 24 hours. In this case it's actually not my fault that I find myself in this predicament. The teacher always makes assignments due 24 hours after class ends, that means the assignment starts at 6:00 pm and ends the next day at 6:00 pm. But two more weeks and I...

By this point you should already have figured out that I'm a total nerd and a goody-two-shoes. That being said, I love my little part-time job. I'm a cashier at a grocery store and we tend to stay open for limited hours on holidays. I worked today even though most grocery stores are closed for Good Friday. It was so incredibly busy from the very start of my shift. There were so many people shopping in the store that we actually ran out of grocery carts! It was awesome, and I'm being 100% honest when I say that. I'm good at my job and being the perfectionist that I am, I enjoy doing things that I am good at. I love it when customers tell me I did a great job at packing their bags or compliment me for always smiling. What can I say, I'm a sucker for words of affirmation. Now that I've had this job for almost 6 months, I've come to realize that despite being a shy person I gain energy off of talking to people. Hence why I enjoyed the busy atmosphere at work tod...

 Honestly I didn't think I was gonna write an entry today considering how much writing I've done in the last 24 hours. Yesterday at 2:00 pm I finally started working on my 1000 word essay which was due at midnight. I even went to the library by my house and bought myself a coffee frappe from McDonald's to force myself to work on it. After leaving the library and coming home, I continued to work on my essay on and off until I was forced to lock in for the final 3 hours before the submission deadline. I ended up submitting the essay at 11:58 pm and instantly went to bed even though I had a thousand other things to do.  I ended up writing my essay about the Blackfoot indigenous language. It was actually very interesting and I enjoyed doing research on the topic. I even found an old book from 1892 documenting the history of the language and it's speakers. I was so intrigued that I actually saved that reference so I could eventually read the whole book. I'm a nerd I know...

 Let me start today's entry with a short description of my current state while writing for the ~aesthetics~. I've wedged myself in the corner of the living room couch with three pillows and my favorite purple blanket. The time is currently 7:41 am and as I'm writing, I'm watching the cars drive by the busy street my house is located next to. The sun has almost fully risen but it's still giving the outside world a warm golden glow. As for me, I'm in my fuzzy Fun Dip candy themed pjs, the natural curls in my hair I work so hard to keep up with are all smushed and I'm sure I have a cow lick at the back of my head. Next to me on the table is a small warm cup of vanilla flavored coffee. To top it off I'm running on 6 hours of sleep which in my opinion is pretty solid.  I got up early with the goal of working on my 1000 word essay for my languages of the world college elective (it's due tomorrow and I haven't even started). I don't doubt that it wi...

 I gave myself the rule to wait a minimum of two days before I post another entry and it is taking all of my self control to follow that rule. I know that writing an entry every day would definitely be over-kill and at some point I would run out of things to write about (that would probably take a while though). I was so tempted to write today's entry last night after midnight, cuz that's technically the next day but I somehow mustered enough self-control to wait until morning.  I never have a clear idea of what I want to talk about when I write these entries, literally no pre-planning is involved and that's what's so exciting about it. I can say what's on my mind and it can be absolutely insane and irrelevant but it doesn't matter cuz as far as I'm concerned it's just me and my silly little thoughts. That being said, I can see the view counts on each of my posts and my heart drops every time the number increases. Obviously, I don't know who has seen...

 Once again I find myself writing while "listening" to an online lecture. This one is about call tracking management and once again yes it is as boring as it sounds. There is so much theory that I feel like I don't understand English. Which got me thinking about the dangers of over-explaining concepts.  For example, I am currently learning about the release management lifecycle. Essentially, it's how an IT company releases a product or service to it's client. Like all life cycles there are steps such as; plan, design/build, improve, and so on. Simple enough... but when you spend a solid hour explaining it, I feel like I've learned nothing. But despite this common college experience, I have learned a lot about the art of teaching by observing my professors. First and foremost, I have learned that having a lot of knowledge does not make you a good teacher. Especially when that knowledge is accompanied  by a massive ego. Those types of teachers will spend hours s...

 At the moment I am currently "listening" to an online lecture about database management (yes it is as boring as it sounds). What makes the class even more insufferable is that I have it every week at 8:00 am. I'm normally up before that but it's still pain to have to attend and use my brain. Before I joined the lecture I was listening to Taylor Swift and I instantly know that you're thinking one of two things "OMG I LOVE HER" or "Seriously, why is she everywhere she's so overhyped". I personally fall in the in between category, I think she's a good person but I wouldn't consider her as one of my favorite artists. But while I wouldn't say I love her, I gotta admit I love her lyricism. She's a phenomenal songwriter and captures love and heartbreak so beautifully with a few simple words. A great example is "All Too Well" there's one line that goes "And I forget about you long enough to forget why I needed to...