Something Inconspicuous

 I bet you all thought you had seen the last of me huh? Honestly for a minute there I did too. My last post was at the beginning of June, more than a month had past and I honestly had no motivation to write an entry so I simply didn't. One month turned into two and now all of a sudden summer is gone and it's September. Guess that means it's time for a life update. I literally just finished reading the last few journal entries in order to understand where I was in life last time I talked about me rather than a concept or idea. Last time I had talked about my life was at the beginning of May when I had graduated from my college program about two weeks before that post.  The day I posted was actually my first day doing volunteer work as a group policy administrator. It's been such an awesome experience and I've learnt so much about Windows administration besides the basics I learned in my college program. I've also met some really cool people from all over the worl...

It's been quite a while since my last blog post. Honestly I've been having too much fun while also stressing out and it's made me a fabulous combination of overstimulated and lazy. Hence why I have not posted an entry in over a month! But I don't want to let anymore time pass, I want to keep documenting my life, my experiences, and thoughts for a long time. My life updates aren't as interesting anymore now that I'm not in school. Well my life is actually super interesting right now but I just don't feel like writing about it, I'd rather live it in the moment.  I've got so many exciting plans for the summer, trips I want to take, people I want to see, hobbies I want to get back into. Like I do every summer, I want to go back to learning the ukulele, I also wanna take time to play some of my favorite video games again. I just find it hard to pursue these things cuz I legitimately cannot sit still, it's awful. I still try to pick up a book every now...

 There's a strength in walking away and letting people go that so few have. There's a strength in realizing that whatever joy you may feel in a moment is temporary if you're ultimately making a bad decision. So few have this strength and let temporary things sweep them off their feet. But what happens when you finally got both feet on the ground again and find yourself stranded in the middle of nowhere? Then what? This is why it's so important to have strong roots, to know who you are, what you believe in, and what you want out of life. I want joy, and I want happiness, but I want it to be lasting. The beautiful thing is that I'm well on my way to getting it as I enter this new chapter in my life.  It's been two weeks since my last day of school but it already feels like a lifetime ago. Knowing that there is a whole world out there to be explored is exhilarating. What makes it even better is that I get to spend it with the people I love. I've been able to sp...

 Hello hello! It's been nearly a month since my last entry although I desperately wanted to write another entry last week. However, these last few weeks have thrown a lot of curveballs at me. Nothing I can't manage obviously but curveballs nonetheless. Exactly a week ago, I attended my last in person class of my program and 5 days ago I submitted my final assignment. After entries upon entries talking about April it's finally here! I'm done and I couldn't be happier! I genuinely feel like I'm dreaming, I feel light as a feather yet my heart is so full it could burst!  To my friends and family who actually read my entries, thank you so very much for coming along on this spectacular journey. And when I say journey, I mean the WHOLE journey. Work, school, pioneering, I will never be that triple threat again. I'm mostly relieved about that but also a little sad because it's the end of an era. I'm saying goodbye to the craziest and most resilient person I...

 Hello! It's been a minute, I know it always has been but I always feel the need to say that when I start an entry. I'm currently in my 10:00 am Web Technologies class, after today I only have to come two more times and I'll officially be done with this course. The same is true for my other Friday class on Microsoft Power Shell, I'm really nervous about that final exam. If I don's pass it I could very easily fail my class. I have NEVER failed a class, not in middle school, not in high school, not in college, and hopefully I never will. Long hours of studying await me to make the previous statement a reality. But my determination is just as strong as my fear and anxiety. If I want it enough I can have it, April is finally here, (not literally, but I'm trying to make a point). Honestly, it feels surreal how close to the finish line I am, college has taken up two years of my life. I was 19 when I started. On week six of my first semester I started working at my cur...

 Honestly the last entry I wrote is one of my most recent favourites. I talked a little bit about school, life in that moment, as well as my childhood and future ambitions. It left me hungry to write more but with midterms and reading week I found myself too busy to sit down and write. Although I have broken my rule, I still believe in writing each post in one sitting unless it is simply not possible. Yesterday, I had my anthropology class and the teacher had us do a very interesting activity. He gave us roughly an hour to complete the activity. The first task was to find a spot on campus. The second was to write down and observe everything around us for the next 15 minutes. Afterwards, we were supposed to use our remaining time to write a 5-10 sentence descriptive narrative about what we saw.  I ended up sitting in my car in front of a bus stop on campus. I saw a lot of things, but one thing that especially caught my eye were two girls standing side by side in bright pink and...

 It's a funny thing. I have so much more free time this college semester then I had last semester despite only going to school three days. Who would've thought that having classes spread out throughout five days makes a world of a difference. I guess it was a blessing in disguise, one of those "trust the process" moments. Next week I have three midterms, one on Tuesday and two on Friday for my three hardest courses. But despite this, I am not panicking which is so incredibly refreshing. Like I said, trust the process, no point being anxious all week, I'll take the midterms one by one. The first exam I'll take on Tuesday is Computer and Network Security, the assignments and labs have been very easy but there is a lot of theory that I don't understand. It's a good thing I only work Monday and Saturday next week. Speaking of work, I now work a lot less hours and surprise surprise I am now happier and wayyyyy less stressed. The other day I was talking to a...

 To be honest I have no idea where this entry is gonna go. I'm currently in class and have a 15 minute break and am getting incredibly annoyed at two of my classmates who are talking up our professor. The class is Anthropology, it's my elective for this college semester. I'm actually enjoying it so far. The content is interesting and my professor is cool, but there are quite a few tryhards that are driving me nuts. It's literally an elective, you can chill and still be interested and engaged. Everything in balance, there is no need to teach the teacher. That being said, in my last entry I hadn't started my fourth semester yet so I guess I'll catch you up to speed. Tomorrow I wrap up week 3 of this semester. I'm starting to get used to having school five days a week, it's actually not too bad but Fridays have been a little rough. The two classes I have that day are definitely the hardest this semester. The first I have in the morning is Web Technologies a...

 First entry of the year! Woot woot. I guess I'll start things off with a little life update. My three weeks off of school has officially ended but this last week came by flying. Unfortunately, I caught a cold on Thursday night so I'm trying not to panic about going into work later today feeling like someone ran me over. I'm also currently trying not to panic that I'm back at school starting Monday. Which means that starting Monday I will start going to school five days a week rather than the three days I am used to. We'll see how it goes, the goal is still April and it keeps coming closer, one day at a time... This is supposed to be the part where I write smooth transition that allows me to segue into the next topic. However, my nose is so stuffed up that it feels like it's stuffed up my brain so I'll just start a new paragraph. Wicked (Part 1)! Unless you're living under a rock you've probably heard of this movie. And although I've talked about...

 Welcome to my 2024 Spotify Wrapped! Obviously, I'm not gonna be able to explain it all as thoroughly as I would like, but I'll do my best. A lot of these songs and artists require explanations, some I will give and some I will not (I have my reasons). So without further a do let's get started. Let's start with ripping the bandage off and addressing my number 1 song. Drumroll please... Defying Gravity (the original Broadway cast recording obviously). According to Spotify I streamed this song a total of 143 times, thus making me part of the top 0.001% of listeners worldwide. This may or may not mean that I am the number one listener of this song on Spotify but I'll try not to think about that too much. I could write an 1000 word essay about what this song means to me and why I love it so much but I'll spare you the details and move on to my top 2-5 songs this year.  Coming in at number 2 is Inolvidable by Ovy on the Drums. My favorite part of this song is actuall...