Please don’t take my blueberry muffin (entry no.27)

 I’m away from home for the next few days and I didn’t feel like bringing my laptop to write an entry so I’m writing on my phone. That being said, please forgive me if this entry is a little too long or shorter than what I normally post. I’m not a big fan of typing using my phone, it feels far less personal than typing on a laptop for some reason. Anyways, last post I was talking about leaving the fate of my hair in the hands of the haircut gods. That being said, I am pleased to announce that I did indeed get a haircut two days ago. I ended up cutting it just above my shoulders and getting some side bangs. I showed up to work yesterday with my new look and all my co-workers were gassing me up so much I legit got shy. I don’t know what to do when someone complements or thanks me. I usually just laugh and hide my face. 

The topic for today’s entry is a little strange but I guess all my topics are strange when you really think about it. Today I wanted to talk about a realization I made; it’s easier to be angry with someone you know than with someone you don’t. Think about it, let’s use an easy example. You’re in line at your favourite bakery and you loudly say that you really want a blueberry muffin and there is only one left. The person in front of you then proceeds to buy that blueberry muffin and eats it right in front of you. In one scenario it’s a complete stranger while in the other one it’s a close friend. In which case are you angrier? Probably the second since you naturally expect more from someone you are close with than with a stranger.

The same is true when you become angry with someone. It’s so much easier to be angry for a longer period of time when the person who made you angry is someone you are or were close to. It’s cuz the level of betrayal is deeper, the level of hurt is deeper, thus the consequences are more severe. Anger can be justified, but it should never define you. A person should never be their anger, that would make them awful to be around. As with all things there is a balance. I feel like I say that a lot but it’s true, trust me! Anger when used appropriately can fuel you to be better, to do better and learn from your mistakes or the mistakes of others. This leads me to another question. What does it mean to forgive?

When I looked up the word forgive in the dictionary, I was presented with two options. The first was to stop feeling angry and resentful towards someone, while the second was to cancel a debt. I really like the picture that the second option paints. To cancel a debt is to give up on something that was owed to you. It requires a very strong and special person to follow through on that. As a result, so many people don’t, they let the debt accumulate to point that it blows up in everyone’s faces. That leads to a big mess and a lot of unhappiness. Therefore, I believe in forgiveness but I do not believe in the saying “forgive and forget”. Remember how you got hurt to avoid getting hurt again but don’t let the hurt consume you and stop you from appreciating the good. Don’t let what happened in the past keep you from the good that will happen in the future.

You're still here? Meet me at entry no.28 :)