I hope I'm good enough (entry no.14)

 It's funny how my need to write comes in waves. On Friday I was dying to write another entry but then Friday came and went and I started to feel a little sad. I don't like to write when I'm sad, it turns me into a bitter person and brings a lot of things to the surface all at once. School's out, the weather was good, I had fun with friends who love me and that's just the tip of the iceberg of the good things I got going on so there is really no excuse. I understand that it's important to feel sad sometimes to process your emotions but I really think I'm just overthinking and being dramatic. Give me an ice coffee and some good music and all is right with the world again. 

I just got off of work and currently have one in hand. My dad bought it for me, he came to pick me up like he normally does. Not to brag but I have amazing parents. I'm surprised I haven't written about them earlier because they truly are spectacular. They are so giving and caring in their own special ways and they truly know best. Over the years I've learnt to always listen to them even if I don't agree with their decisions and opinions at first. They always end up being right in the end which is equally as infuriating as it is comforting. 

The amount of impromptu late night talks I have with my family is hilarious. Slowly all four of us trickle into my parent's room and have a deep talk about life for a solid hour before going to bed. That actually just happened last night, we talk about our friends, our values, our feelings, basically anything and everything. My family are experts at dealing with my ranting, especially since I am able to talk about the same things over and over again without being the slightest bit bored. I feel so incredibly sorry for those who don't have good relationships with their parents or siblings and I try to appreciate the privilege I've been given as best as I can. 

But out of all the hats I wear (and believe me there are a lot of them), the one I wear most proudly is being an older sister. Nothing brings me more pride and joy. But as a result, nothing makes me more angry than a bad older sibling. I'll choose my sister over everyone else without even giving it a second thought and I can't understand siblings who wouldn't do the same. I think of all the great older sisters I know (my mom included) and I can't help but feel an overwhelming sense of pride as well as humility at the thought of belonging to that group. 

You're still here? Meet me at entry no.15 :)

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